9/11

So, I decided to DVR a bunch of the 9/11 tenth anniversary stuff because I was away and frankly wanted to unplug on 9/11.  So here I am watching it today and writong this from my couch and all I can say is wow.  I remember where I was and everything from that day, but I remember that my main thought was "damn, I'm going to be drafted."  Looking back I wish that I would have been able to see beyond myself...it's unimagineable to me the feelings of those who witnessed it, went through it, or lost loved ones in it.  It is also beyond me to comprehend what was going on to make so many people jump...

As I sit here watching this "never been seen before" footage and realizing that some of the rescuers were my age is what brings it home for me.  I just cant imagine being 18 or 19 and having to go towards that devistation, let alone into it.  I have huge admiration for all those who helped their fellow man that day. 

It's the noise of the plane that really gets me.  The second one streaking across the sky and into the second tower is just haunting...I can't imagine the feelings and expereinces that people had. 

I'm not a religeous person and actually feel afirmed in that choice watching this.  I think that religion can be a dangerous thing.  For that matter any time that someone tells you what to believe scares me.

All in all I'm just feeling bad for not grasping the gravity of the situation at the time.  Being so worried about myself and being drafted seems so very petty now.  I didn't know anyone who lost their life that day but it has clearly affected me and has taught me alot about being a human.  How is it that one human could do something like this to another human...particularly since it is free will that seperates us from monkeys as well as what allows us to choose religion. 

All I know is that we are all on this planet together and as such we must figure out how to coexist.  I promise to not interfere with you if you promise not to interfere with me...Live and let live.